The Underlying Theme

well now, this will probably be the last post of the year. ah le petite blog.

i wanna take this time to talk about the two books that have occupied my november and december. the first being Lolita and the second House of Leaves. both books sent me into a trauma similar to being sucked underwater and held there until your lungs drown and your brain compresses. either that, or altitude sickness. ...the tomes flung me between altitudinal extremes, and whether high or low, it seemed to expand my horizons; now i can see further than before. i have a greater understanding of boundaries, or lack thereof. the alpha and omega seem now just constructs that easily can be eschewed. sound fun?

now here's the problem with living outside of a perimeter: it's like dreaming in black. say you had a dream, and all you dreamt was black. are you dreaming? how do you remember something without a line of demarcation? these thoughts just permeated my every winter thought, and was perpetuated by my marked propensity for imbibing liquor during the cold (disambiguated) season. and i'll tell you what, it was kinda shitty.

so now i'm reading some good ol' Malcom Gladwell. but, guess what? come the end of the aughts, i'm starting Infinite Jest. take that!

but, seriously, read House of Leaves. you must read it 2 minutes ago. the place it took me to/left me at is like a mobius strip of a Lynchian creepshow mixed with Gabriel Garcia Marquez. i lent it to a friend and i feel like i amputated a phantom limb or something, i miss holding it (it weighs about 4 lbs, 726 pages).

new years eve party coming up. i'm gonna play music for it. started Miss Julie rehearsals today, and that is going to prove challenging and fun, more than i anticipated it to be. though, the lack of organization of the rehearsal process seems a little odd. i think i'm gonna have to come in with a lot more commitment and ideas with this, even though i'm barely on stage. Shrew is almost over, and all in all it was a pretty fun time. the days where i wasn't hopped up on caffeiene or nicotine were the best ones for that show. they are always the best ones... i havent' had coffee in a while, and that really makes me feel great. course, i havent gotten all fucked up in a while.

paint the black hole blacker.